莫忘我

my most feared

2012-01-05T09:46:00.001-08:00

****warning
emoooo post!!! *********

i used to think is scary being alone.
so i like to be with pple.
then i realise is better to be alone alone.
then to be with a grp of pple and yet feel alone.
it happened when i least expect it.
so worse cos nt prepared.
i just learn to keep quiet and smile it thru.
like i learn in my job.
talk less if nt say wrong thing. and a little smile wont hurt.

someday i will be gone.
loti will rot away and find real peace.
i shall stay away from the pple that emits negative energy to me.

stupid taxi!

2011-12-27T05:16:00.001-08:00

its me! cute melody again. wahaha.
fyi this pics are from a my melody planner i receive as a bdae present from ying this yr =)

those who have twitter will know my complains!!
i saw the taxi Q and was so long outside Plaza Sing then i was so happy. cos seeing their biz drops shows how stupid they are to increase their fare. yet i know end of the day we still have to take taxi. at least i try nt to take taxi home as much as possible. thx for that help to save $ huh?

another complain that i think got to do with my age.
i think i am tired of arguing my way ard, i just learn to let the anger in me subside and then it will be like it didnt affect me.
becos most of the time my arguments doesnt make sense to most and pple just dun understand. so i jus learn to let it not affect me in the best way possible and smile it off. like i did for my cust in my line of job, happy anot just smile it off.
now i just apply to many other probs and things ard me.
some pple call this anger management i used to think omg that is so fake. now i use it to avoid meaningless argument.

i wish i was better at being a poker face. everything shows on my face just too easily.

holiday mooddd

2011-12-25T21:57:00.001-08:00

i am so in a holiday mooddd!!
wahaha..
sch starts abt 2 weeks later so before it starts i gonna partyyy!! wahaha.
yes call me crazy but when sch starts my schedule will be mess up max. stress too. last sem for my dip before i decide where to go on.
2011 is ending soon.
time really does fly...
come 2012 i hope it will be a better yr for all of us.
the year of the dragon. my year and the same for most of my friends! all the best!!!

slpyyy

2011-12-21T20:55:00.001-08:00

slpyyy max.
such good weather to be slping...
i had a good dream. so true i wake up thinking... then is back to reality. boom.... zzz....

boring

2011-11-16T05:25:00.001-08:00

bored.
start checking fb, twitter.
blogs and whatapp.

what abt u?

the year is ending soon. meaning xmas is here soon. yet i havent plan my next yr trip =(

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so many times i wish i wasnt myself.

yet i am still me.
a part of me will never be the same again.

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happy 11.11.11

2011-11-10T08:26:00.001-08:00

happy 11.11.11
(^-^) it will be bery long before we encounter this kind of dates again. maybe when it is 11.11.1111?
lol. so may all our wish comes true. make a wish ~ say for the fun of it. i did. wonder will it come true?
i am quite greedy going to make a few wishes since if 1 didnt come true maybe the others will? haha.

anyway i think today my cousin getting engaged? hmmm. if so, congrats to her and all other wedding couples today! a busy busy day for ROM.

though is just any other day for me.
worse with proj and class on sat.
and i am not exactly feeling well..
maybe is the stress.

happy holidays!

2011-11-06T07:33:00.001-08:00

happy holidays!!!

i bought my giant ribbon ring and did my fav french manicure and ended up with a super super happy mood!

hee! hope this will help chase away monday blues tml!

i guess i really am bothered by certain events and maybe doubt myself a little. but yet i gets more motivated each day to not end up like that. becos in a way i dun wan to be like that. is complicated huh, the love hate thing.

anyway i had my statistics test lasr fri and then i keep thinking abt that 1 qns that i was quite sure i was right until cher showed me the light. lol. thanks cher! if not it will be on my mind for some time or maybe until my lecturer explain to me. haha. and i havent been touching my books except the day before the test. this is so so bad. guess i need to go back to the comfort of my books before i regret...

jiayou! fightinggg!!!

my future

2011-10-11T07:26:00.001-07:00

my class started. back to school.
this week is a tiring week. 6 day work week and 4 sch days.. and there are homework... the lecturer very clever, say if you want to fail just dont come for class and dont do my homework. confirm fail.. failure rate is low. every lecturer says that. it better be that.

the good news is i am going on star cruise virgo next week!!! hurray!! a short getaway! my blue blue sea and sky! i missss u!!!

random

2011-10-06T08:39:00.001-07:00

i like to look at cute things cause they make me happy.

i avoid arguement with people i work with to maintain the peace in my work. is tiring enough to have to deal with customers, i cant be bothered abt u. seriously, get a life and please grow up u are too spoilt for your age and someone your size too.
wonder besides here where can u go? where will still employ u? please amaze me. but i doubt so unless u grow up.

on another note, sch going to start in 3 days time. got to pay too. going to be so so broke. but at least it also means that i am going to grad soon! my future will shine shine shine!!! wahaha...

anger management

2011-09-29T00:25:00.001-07:00

i am still trying to control my temper.
anger management..
sometimes i try to smile away.
i hate my job. motivation to study more so as not to be stuck here forever. cust svc no longer bring me joy.

i hope i will manage to get thru these 3 module and finish off this sem nicely! 2 more sem! then i grad!

oct isnt exactly a great mth, cos i need to pay my school fees again. so am going to be very very broke. sad =(
money in, money out really like water. lol.
hope after grad can get a better paying job! i need to save and to travel ard the world.

*sometimes what i seek for is companionship, not love. to be able to not feel so alone, yet i know i am born to this world alone too*

maldives

2011-09-28T06:13:00.001-07:00

this is so pretty!
in maldives!
but just 1 night cost more than USD$700!
if only i was richer...
if only i can travel every month instead of every year? i guess i do get greedy. last time can travel already happy. now my aim is to travel every year =) every mth not realistic unless i print notes or my future bf is super duper rich.

23 bdae

2011-09-21T04:20:00.001-07:00

i got my wishlist came true.my 1st bdae present!
as requested, i got a wallet as my bdae present, so my Guess wallet that served me well for 2 yrs has been changed to my bdae present from ah yee, lx, and cher! pics attached! all the way from europe! thx for all the effort to choose this wallet out and the amt of $ spend also!
there are also my initials, MNG engraved on it!

this yr bdae celeration is still heart warming. presents from the others to encourage me on my studies. mostly practical stuffs, stuffs i can use and be reminded that i am loved when i am mugging for my studies.

which reminded me, that my econs examz just ended ytd! hurray! 1 more paper to go next week!! more mugging!

then as promised i have a few grp gatherings to go to after my exams!

hello!!

2011-08-29T07:10:00.001-07:00

hello hello kitty!

as usual i am sick and tired of work, the hours and the stupid cust i face everyday. even with pay day coming, i still dread going to work. with school and lessons to attend time seems to pass faster. i seems to be less emotional at least esp at night. usually too tired.. wahaha. i must be too free previously. anyway my ah ma say accordingly to my hand that i will have a good life. wahaha. worries-free... so cheers to my future!

test tml

2011-08-21T08:36:00.001-07:00

i shud be studying for tml test! but here i am blogging away. wahaha...
good luck for me ok!

may the smurf smartness be with me tml! this smurf is done by tay ping hui. bling bling!!! hee...

excited, that it is going to be sept soon! wahaha direct hint. lol...
it also means exams coming. yet i am so in the party mode!

ok shall go back to my lovely books, love them and then they will come to me. like the show for gambling on majong. must love them. lol.

national day

2011-08-09T03:31:00.001-07:00

happy 46th birthday Spore!
yes as much complains i have being here, i am still proud to say i am a Singaporean.

exams stress

2011-08-05T10:14:00.001-07:00

the moment i open my email and receive the date of exams is when my old fren, exams stress came back to me. after so long of neglecting it, i am back to sch, exams in abt 2mths time! wish me luck! my lecturers keep saying that it is gonna be easy. in their context? if so, i do wanna score well, distinction? i certainly hope so. shall plan more studying time and effectively study!!!

but before that, is play time first! sept is afterall a mth of celebrations! shall push all bdae plans early this yr, due to exams! so my dear frens, i so seek ur understanding! hee!

all that play will hopefully give me motivation for my studies! jiayou to myself!

p.s update to my previous post. i am feeling better! throat feels so so much better! maybe is becos is finally my off days!!! wohoo!!

sick...

2011-08-04T05:25:00.001-07:00

sick... again.. took urgent leave as i didnt want to see the doc.. it was good not having to talk to cust for this long! wohoo!
but tml work starts again. but there is still sch! so yeah! my fav class tml.
exams schedule are out! clear leave time!!! yes they are all in sept!
guess i have to go back to studying mode soon. up til now it was still quite relaxed...
wish me luck!

complains..

2011-07-31T00:15:00.001-07:00

i hate to talk to pple who dont understand at all and give u what's the big deal? wtf. i wonder y i bother complaining to these pple? of cos it matters to me la? i guess i better understand my complains cust now. just that we complain on a diff level. i should be more understanding towards their frustrations. i should keep my mouth shut and even if it bothers me just smile it away. then i will do the same to the pple who give me the same shit. let them
know how if feels huh? aint kind anymore. argh!!!!

smile it thru. level up.

sch

2011-07-31T00:10:00.001-07:00

cute my melody spotted inside machine!
i so wanna have it. i think is the idea that it is there, u have a chance of getting it, win it and is urs. like toto and lucky draw that attracts pple so much..

anyway sch so far been quite interesting. though i think i am going to have probs with staying awake on wed class as it is something like eng, dry topic with the lecturer aust accent makes it worse.

the best of all is marketing class, good looking lecturer to the well liked topic of marketing just makes things better =)

while economics class is neutral. just it takes more time for me to understand those numbers, formulas and all.

luckily i have gd classmates and proj grps with me. only thing i hate, my due date for assignment is on my bdae. whoever set the duedate is out to bully me =(
i was planning to skip class that day. zzz.
and exams shud be ard sept. sept mth of spaming leave and being very bz!!!

on a side note, i am excited! lx is coming back soon! wohoo!!!

sch

2011-07-25T21:00:00.001-07:00

rosti

2011-07-16T05:47:00.001-07:00

Rosti homemade! wahaha!
actually is buy from carrefour then i pan fried it plus mayo and it tasted awesome! wohoo!!

ytd i also met up with frens and had choc melts 1 for 1! TGIF!
sinful as i had twister fries also. then went to punggol nearby bar for beer and chips. after that, they all came my house to slack and played monopoly deals and drink hoegarden plus many chips.

then had kfc breakfast! blueberry pancake!! love love!!

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2011-07-15T02:04:00.000-07:00

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sch!

2011-07-08T08:42:00.001-07:00

sch is starting on 18july! wohoo! excited and scared! wish me good luck!!!

life is getting more busy, my manager ask me y did i choose to study? i say i was lost abt what to do, i need a way out. he say i should just stay lost and eventually there will be a way out. he even say i may even regret choosing to go study. but i still stick with my choice. i dunno if what he say is right, but right now i feel like i need to study, to learn something new, to make life more than what it is now. wish myself all the best and to find a way to stand firmer on this ground.
我想我找到能够使我用双脚坚强站在大地上的东西。

anyway, the day before, mum fell down while chasing bus. it was quite serious, she injured her nerves or something like that, had to rest at home. i cooked angel hair for her ytd then today she cooked. haha she like it the way i liked it too. wahaha. hopefully she recover soon. she cant walk without feeling pain yet she still cook and do simple housework. i guess this is what a mother is, something i am not. anyway pls pray that she get well soon.

Rainie yang

2011-07-01T09:48:00.001-07:00

Rainie yang! She look so so pretty!!! Wohoo! Admire the fact that she try to keep her smile on thru out the time. 1 lucky thing abt working at cathay! I get to see her! Wohoo! But now that Gong Cha is open, I been trying to resist urge to buy, the smell of the tea is awesome and it doesn't help to have ur colleagues buying almost everyday and asking u if u wan anot, when it is just next door?
I limit myself 1 cup per week... Which is a pain... Argh, lucky out of welfare the company treats all of us to 1 cup! Wohoo!!!

I maybe still working with the company, part time and maybe full time? We are still trying to work out the schedule. My yearn for financial freedom is there. I can't help it, I have so many countries to go! Lalala...
When I grad I better get a job that pays me even better, for the next level is a degree course. In the case that I manage to get my bro to help in bank loan?

Sch starting, a bit freak!
But I hope I get to meet new and interesting friends! Lala...

*************emo******************
I don't know if u ever felt this way, that sometimes is better to not have any friends? Cos then they won't be able to hurt u? Sometimes some people u can't just leave them, like bee is attracted to honey? Yet I hope I do give a certain Amt of distance, of barrier. I didn't protect myself enough from the hurt. Or maybe I take for granted things?

Turtle

2011-06-27T08:59:00.001-07:00

Cute turtle bathingzz...
Mum was asking me the other day what is this, she say she been trying to guess, I say turtle... Then I ask don't look like meh? She say dunno... After awhile I say true la is a act cute turtle... Wahaha.
But then again, at least it is cute la.

I been thinking abt going to Taiwan so much that I dream of going. It was last min as there was promotions and we book the flight to fly few days later, I rmb having cher and Adrian together at the airport then I woke up.... Haha. I guess everyone been there done that. So I want to go there too... So many places I wanna go, yet some are romantic and expensive places that friends will not wanna go with u. I will find my own chance to go. I will find a way to go. Anyway I should be thinking abt upcoming job interview, I am going jobless soon, need the $ to keep coming in to feel safe, the need to have financial freedom, like always.I guess this is the only kind of freedom I can't do without. So wish me good luck.

Coach

2011-06-26T09:20:00.001-07:00

I am a happy girl!
Bought my first COACH wristlet as motivation for my upcoming studies!
Hee is very worth it due to GSS!

All I hope is that the school can come up with the orientation/sch schedule asap and let me know when sch is startin!! I only heard is 11July, but not confirmed!!!

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2011-06-24T22:04:00.000-07:00

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Resignation

2011-06-22T06:48:00.001-07:00

Love my melody. Blink blink! Wohoo!
Saw this while shopping with ah Yee!

As many have already know, I have tender in my resignation after my trip to BKK! Glad that my plans went smoothly that the school accepted me 1 day before my trip so I went on the trip happily.

I am finally going to study! Been nagging abt it so yes words put to actions and it did feel good.
As I am going to stdy diploma I am already looking at the degree cost, and the need to take bank loan, so Yes i need to save and the Taiwan 2012 plan is ongoing! Everyone I know been there at least once la! So yes I wanna go there too! Anyone interested?
1 thing I realise many couple going overseas holiday rather than singles?
At least that is what I realized among my frens, singles also can travel ok, look for me, I will be your company as long as $ allows and me being a vegetarian doesn't bother u, pls call me! I love traveling!

2011 seems like a good year,
And Lx is coming back!!!
Wohoo!

Bangkok trip

2011-06-13T23:48:00.001-07:00

I am backk!!
Finally online after being offline from 2june to 13june! Wohoo!!
Imagine I only charge my iPhone once!

I tried water sports for the first time at pattaya! Banana boat was the best. Exciting as u do not know when u will fall and be thrown into the water. The one for all and all for one feel.. We all had to get back to the banana boat and when one fall we all fall too. Wohoo! Feel like those camping days. Parchasite flying( don't know how to spell ) was fun too. I believe I can fly ~
Ski boat was ok. I guess I like more exciting stuffs. Haha.

We sat on tutu which is their bus over there, cos we found bells to press to stop. It was so so much more happening than our Clarke quay at night, kinda scary but those gers or guys u see are hot!!

I love our hotel at Siam bayshore resorts! Photos will be up on fb asap. I love that once we arrived in the hotel there was welcome drinks and brownie and hot towel. After the 2hr ride from the airport it did feel good! Our rooms were upgraded too. We made full use of the swimming pool, pool table & buffet breakfast every morning! Then we skipped lunch and had a full dinner.

A 2 weeks trip that I relax and shop so much that I didn't really wanna come back, except that I didn't have much $ anymore and I kinda miss my mum cookings! The vegetarian food there are nice too, sour and spicy! But I still miss mum cookings!

We also tried coming down from 50+ storey it was nt as scary as it was slowly coming down... I get to sit on elephants too! Mine was 112 years old. No wonder she keep stopping by to eat, must be hungry. I also realize how much I sucks at driving at go kart! I went straight into the grass twice! So paisey had to wait to be saved! The 2nd time the person gave me another vechicle that is slower already so I ended up safe and sound.

At Bangkok we did alot of shopping! Really shop til u drop, I do wanna go back there and shop! Cheap and i can buy almost without much thought. My hotel was baiyoke boutique. Not as fantastic as Siam bayshore at pattaya. But it was cheaper and provide the minimum for us during our stay there. Maybe I should stay in baiyoke sky next time. We went there for dinner as it was the tallest building in Bangkok, 81 storey high! Wohoo!

We also went for city tours around the temples they were all wow! A pity we didnt have time to go visit the grand palace! I am so going back there!!

Whoever told us 8 days is Enuff for Bangkok did not really understand us. Our schedule was quite packed and we were all tired!! We all felt lucky we didn't go for 4 or 5 days instead. The shopping area is so much bigger than our bugis street la! Oh ya we watched gold class X Man there! Great movie, must watch! Professor X seems so much more handsome in real life.

To relax I did manicure and pedicure there I also had a facial massage! Wohoo! So pampered after all the shopping! We did so many things I kinda Lost counts, wait for pics ba!

The chatucak weekend market is so big we didn't finish walking too! But the things sold there were all unique and special!

Wohoo! What a 2 weeks! I learn alot, in a good and bad way =)
Thanks adrian, cher, Ying, Zhen you, Olivia for their care in the trip!

Next year, Taiwan! Against all odds!!!
I am coming!!!

Cheers

2011-05-29T01:42:00.001-07:00

Cheers! Proudly presented by cher! Wohoo! Before that we had icewine, I forgot to take photos, it taste fantastic!
Cheers to our BKK trip!

I hope to enjoy myself before sch starts in july yes I had registered. Just awaiting confirmation...

Planning next trip to Taiwan next year. My aim is to travel every year. Haha so I found my goal in life. Hee =)

Maybe just maybe this Yr isn't so bad afterall, half a year is going to pass just like that. And comes july, we may get to see Lx too!
Then aug I am going for the comedy musical JUMP!
Sept birthday month and most likely my exam month too. But I have a feeling that the class intake for July may not be able to start If they do not have enough people then I can join my friend in OCt intake. She can't study with me cos she is going holidays in Sept, exam month. I can't change to OCt intake if I want the $500 rebate. $500 leh! Amt I need to pay in the case I fail have to retake lo! CHOY! Touchwood!

Plans for my birthday I do have a few in mind, just worried if it will clash with exams, so shall wait for schedule to be out first. Hopefully it comes out that exams end before my bdae. *pray hard*

Our USS just had their official opening done! Wohoo~ make me feel like visiting them again.. Next year, maybe I should consider getting annual pass? Then I can go in and play whenever I feel like it!

The sad thing abt June and July is that there are no public holidays at all!!! So we declared holidays ourself and going BKK! Haha. Hope I can manage to get data sim card! I need fb, I need twitter, my dear blog and msn!!!

8 more days!

2011-05-24T06:24:00.001-07:00

8 more days down to my 1st BKK TRIP.
All I been waiting this entire year is this!
Wohoo!! Pls let everything goes well, and safe!

Becos of this I resist the urge to quit when works goes down, becos of this i reject a pay that doesn't pay me the same? Plus the fact that if everything goes well yes I will be studying in July! Registering this coming Thurs! $ flys to the non refundable registration fees! So finally I am going to be a student! Funny how much I used to hate studying, now that is the only thing I wanna do.. I guess that is what working too much does to u. Just wanna lead a diff life and a better life of cos! Besides wrk, home, eat, slp, shit I get to study too! To create a better life next time! So many places I wanna go!
And so I keep telling myself this so I will not settle for any other job! Stay on! Hang on! Life can get better! Try harder!

And I am so looking forward to the entire week ahead! Finally getting something more to look forward to after work!

East coat beach

2011-05-21T10:31:00.001-07:00

Meet up with my sec sch fren in MJR after quite some time always make me happy..
Photo was taken in east coast park..
Sweet couple, glad she found someone to share her life with. I still rmb how sad she was, we experience Brk up ard the same time, so I am truly glad she can still smile sweetly when she is with him.
May they last happily and happy belated birthday!!

The moon was at it's brightest tonight, the most beautiful I ever seen, there were not much stars but u shine thru it all...
At such moments I realize I never really changed...

Pirates of the carribean!

2011-05-20T10:48:00.001-07:00

Wohoo seeing this photo, anyone would know what movie I just watched?
Shall not spoil the movie but love the mermaids. ESP that particular 1!! Wohoo!

Johnny deep is still WOW!!
Catch u next year? Don't end yet ok? Love it. Love how it shows every unique character and make u yearn to know more abt them. At least I do...

Watching these movies that shows the deep blue sea makes me wanna go on cruise again. The deep deep blue blue sea and the wind... It kinda makes life better...

*out of point, ranting.
Too lazy to start a new post***

And I had to know my fren admit into hospital thru fb. Yes we won't close. Not exactly. But yet it reflects on how communications change? Or maybe if not for fb I won't even know? Since we aint close? In a way yes u won't wanna tell text everyone u in hospital? Haizzz. Hope she gets better. Most likely unable to visit her since i didn't wanna go alone..

But if I ever admit into the hospital I Wonder what I will do?
Maybe I won't be in the right mind to think abt that. I must be bored to be thinking abt such issues. LOL!

Lost and found

2011-05-14T08:03:00.003-07:00

Post suppose to be up Ytd, but blogger didnt allow it until today, sat!

Remember I was complaining how I lost my Ic and then how I wasted $100?
Today I found my Ic in a bag I seldom
Use!!! Zzz! Mad angry with myself! I just spend $100 on a stupid card la!

This is exactly what my brother did some time ago so I can't deny that we really are brother and sister?

Anyway it's black Friday today! Friday the 13th! Meeting joy in town today fr dinner!
Happy friday everyone, not so happy for me as tomorrow work starts again.

Lost and found

2011-05-14T08:03:00.001-07:00

Remember I was complaining how I lost my Ic and then how I wasted $100?
Today I found my Ic in a bag I seldom
Use!!! Zzz! Mad angry with myself! I just spend $100 on a stupid card la!

This is exactly what my brother did some time ago so I can't deny that we really are brother and sister?

Anyway it's black Friday today! Friday the 13th! Meeting joy in town today fr dinner!
Happy friday everyone, not so happy for me as tomorrow work starts again.

Voted

2011-05-07T00:41:00.001-07:00

Voted for the 1st time!!
Hee =) lucky there was not a lot of people so I made it in time for work. My parents bought my Nasi lemak for breakfast and dad fetch me to the mrt so I was actually early for work!! Then was given a hashbrown from Mac! Hee =) full max but I just had lunch too =) packed nicely by mum! It's mothers day Tml!! She does not like to celebrate these kind of things also la. So... Usually we just don't celebrate...

Anyway Ytd was an exciting day. Haha I went from home-Tangong pagar-bugis-bedok-raffles-cityhall-pasir ris inter-pasir ris beach-ehub-Dhoby-home. Wow!! And just Thurs I was sleeping like a pig. Then Ytd I only reach home 5am!! Here goes the long story for the day!

I went to tanjong pagar for my interview, suppose to receive news on mon abt it. And I went pass my sch Guilford, missed schooling alot!

Then I went bugis fr shopping and then bought koi!! Milk tea 70% and went to do my hair treatment at bedok. At this time I was told by Cher and ah Yee abt meeting up in town!! Argh I just came back from town, but the fact that it has been so long since we meet and I also needed to go town to change $, I went...

After my hair treatment I ask my manager for directions to change $ and went to raffles, end up same rate as suntec! Haha but nvm now I know can jus go suntec! Anyway then I went to find cher at city hall. We chat and laugh as usual... Just then, I reached a call!! Haha from a fren to go drinking, and i don't reject drinking sessions so I agree...

We met at pasir ris mrt then walk to pasir ris beach then they wanted to go sing!! Haha but it was a nice walk.. Cool!
So we took a cab back to ehub and saw that the rate was ex at Kbox. Then decided To go spyder! Ktv pub near Cathay!

This is when things got exciting!
We sang and drink and chatted!
Then my fren slowly got drank so we tried so hard to get her on the car home.
She did many many stuns! And it was a long journey back I only arrive home at 5am!!! What happen, I shall not write here, ask me! I am aching all over and sleepy. Shud be sleeping in my break but didnt and type this long long entry!

I guess being drunk and letting it all out did and will make anyone feel better. But still isn't a healthy way to let off steam huh?

my cute cousin

2011-05-05T03:45:00.000-07:00

my cute cousin just send me a text saying that she dream abt me! haha the best part is she dream i had a business of my own, yes MINE! it was a classy manicure and pedicure shop! then i told her i would rather open a cafe if i have the choice =) but she still say i suit the mani and pedi shop more.

hmmm, if i have the $, everything will be possible, imagine putting the idea of mani, pedi and cafe idea together.. while waiting for ur nails to dry and all u still can have some finger food. WOW! it will work best for Cher since she love food so much. haha. then i dont have to worry abt finding who to do the nails for me anymore, nor to book any appt since i am the lady boss.. wahaha, day dreaming indeed. but it ever open, rest assured that discounts will be given to my friends =)

enough of the day dreams, now what matters is my job. wahaha
i am finally bring my lazy self to send out resumes, in a way i got lucky, after sending ard 5 resumes, i got a call for interview tml. wish me luck guys!
i am not sure how successful the very 1st interview will be but it will be a good try then after that i will reward myself by going for shopping therapy.
btw, i just had sleeping therapy today- in other words being a pig.
cos i wake up-eat-shit-sleep-wake up-eat-slp again. haha i needed the rest and yes i do feel better, shall send out more resumes! hee =) wish me luck ok? i hope to get a job before i quit 1 this time. $ minded now! wahahah...

may the luck be with me ~

Pocket $ day!

2011-04-29T08:11:00.001-07:00

Happy!!! We finally got our pocket $ from ah gong! Though it isn't alot but better than nth. This will not be the reason for my choice for election. I am still considering my options...
I guess many will take the $ and the long holidays to Msia? So hopefully Tml will be very free during work? Hee (*^_^*)

Anyway I bought my parents to dinner today in celebrations of their birthdays. Thinking to bring them out again if I can next month too, before work and sch gets to me. They are lucky to receive the $ near their birthdays, like birthday present from ah gong!

I think they don't really like the food, cos is more of western and Japanese food but is something different and new for them, next month maybe bring them to the usual vegetarian places =)

Anyway I have plans to go shopping next week! Hee =) kinda of making a list! Wohoo ~

playing!

2011-04-23T07:37:00.001-07:00

Life is bored! I so feel like playing like the pic shows?
Having headache now even though I took panadol already! Argh!

Sick sick sick!!!

So many things to say but don't know where to start.
I had those dreams again.
Dreams awake a part of me I never wanted to face.
Sometimes I wish I never dream. Yet I know sometimes these dreams are all I had left now..

Food cravings!

2011-04-11T05:59:00.001-07:00

Sudden food cravings for egg mayo and potato salad!!
If only I can have it done myself.. But I don't know how to make it.
Lucky Olivia knows how, so once her exams over she promised to teach me... Then I can cook myself when I have the cravings! Yum yum!

Wish that egg mayo and potato salad fly to me now ~ Wahahaha...

Work has been boring as usual. I am counting down to the day I leave... Lol. Yes I am planning to leave...
Any office jobs to recommend? Feel free to let me know.. =)

Meaningful

2011-03-22T06:13:00.001-07:00

朋友您好，为了你好，请您坐好，
用心听好。钱多钱少，够吃就好。
人丑人美，顺眼就好。
人老人少，健康就好。家穷家富，
和气就好。
老公晚归，有回就好。
老婆唠叨，顾家就好。
孩子从小，就要教好。
博士也好，卖菜也好，
长大以后，乖乖就好。
房屋大小，能住就好。
名不名牌，能穿就好。
两轮四轮，能驾就好。
老板不好，要忍就好。
一切烦恼，能解就好。
坚持执着，放下最好。
人的一生，平安就好。
不是有钱，一定会好。
心好行好，命能改好。
谁是谁非，天知就好。
修福修慧，来世更好。
说这么多，明白就好。
天地万物，随缘就好。
很多事情，看开就好。
人人都好，日日都好。
你好我好，世界更好。
总而言之，知足最好。

Suddenly awake

2011-03-10T13:55:00.001-08:00

It's 5.48am in the morningzz..
I am awake and have to go to work in a few hours time ~

I guess I am crazy.
It's like such a good weather now, raining... But my mind refuse to sleep...

Saw my parents waking up at this time too. It has been far too long since i woke up this early. I rmb when I was younger, I have to wake up for sch... Mum will prepare breakfast, bread, milk or milo. Now she is preparing for our lunch, she always wake up early to prepare.
谢谢你，妈妈。。
I always make sure I finish what she cook, that is the only thing I can do now since I can't afford to give her anything else.

Hmm I guess I Shud try to go to slp again. Good night people, or should I say good morning?

Hongbao!

2011-02-07T07:37:00.001-08:00

Huat ah!
Notice that DBS hongbao is the most
Popular 1 to use! The 1 that got
Guy and girl...
Cheers! U are the best winner!

Thanks for all these, my dear family and relatives. Your well wishes will keep me going on and may 2011 be a better year ahead! Jiayou!

Lx is going back aust soon.
2 weeks fly? Hope u had fun!

I hope everything goes well for
Her when she is back and come back soon... USS is waiting for us.. Wahahha!

Nails!!!

2011-02-02T11:36:00.001-08:00

I finally did my lovely French ribbon nails ~ I love it =)

Universal Studio visit on 31Jan2011!

2011-02-02T10:15:00.000-08:00

I FINALLY went to USS !
luckily for us, the rain kinda getting smaller when we were there so we were able to have fun, and i saw my fren there so we had addidtional vouchers given to us =) yeah!
it just didnt feel like i was still in singapore. the revenge of the mummy ride was so so exciting, we all felt so high and happy walking out. in general the rides are ok. but i love the place, the music, the buildings the rides and all that i am so tempted to get the annual pass to go in there unlimited, anyone else interested?
hope the roller coaster open soon, i will be back USS! more pics, as usual are in my fb!!! hee =) is so much easier uploading there!

being with the best of friends,
the best entertainment area,
gives me the best feeling ever...

may the memories stay in our heart forever ~

I lost it..

2011-01-06T02:55:00.001-08:00

I lost my s9hd.. Y y y yy y y
I just use for abt 2 days and I lost it.
In case u guys didn't know, is a Bluetooth earpiece not cheap too. Argh!!!
Though I got It under staff price but still is ex la. Haiz... So sad. Then I also realise that my china fren is going back to china soon. She is a good person to work with and talk to. Working with her destress and make work easier fr me. Sad sad sad!!! Why the start of 2011 is so so bad for me? I hope It means I let go of bad luck so good luck comes rolling now!!!

The only good thing is Lx is coming back soon... I am so looking forward to it. Set aside days to meet her and all. Hope we can all have fun and make 2011 a better year and Cny is coming too. Like less than a month already. But I dun feel it la. Maybe is still early... Haha.. But I do have shoppings to do ~
Let me spend ba, let me feel better!!!

xmas eve

2010-12-24T06:43:00.000-08:00

it's xmas eve,
my slacking day =)
i see so many pple wishing each other merry xmas today, like it is already xmas...
so i did the same.

MERRY XMAS!
6 more days to 2011. the much better year than 2010!

so i just keep eating at home, watching shows on xinmsn.com, the channel U feature film for love in a cab and love 50%. i realise i stop watching taiwan shows for now ~
so addicted to breakout.
i everyday also see, either on tv or xinmsn,
then my brother also addicted, cos i keep telling everyone i know is nice. haha.

planning for 2011 starts today too,
so book me early to avoid disappointment,
loti gonna be busy in 2011 ~
hurray ~

Reflection

2010-12-21T08:16:00.001-08:00

I think I am so angry becos I am reminded of myself, of what I used to be.. Of the mistakes I made... I understand yet I still feel the anger in me. Being angry with myself? Or angry that I am being reminded of what kind of person I was? That I was so blinded...

All that will make a better Loti.

I want to make myself busy,
In fact very very busy.

2011, please dont mess with me like how your brother 2010 did. Thanks!

I will make sure 2011 will be more fun packed and exciting =)

over soon...

2010-12-15T10:31:00.000-08:00

the year is going to be over soon ~
i wonder what lies ahead in 2011,
i hope for a better yr, it cant get any worse can it?
i dont even know how i pass this yr...

there are so many things i wish i can do,
to travel more ~
to have a better career...
and secretly..
i wish for someone special to appear too ~
haha no longer a secret now since i type it out...
i know the next 1 will be worth the wait ~

i want to spend more time with pple u know who that i disappoint thru the past yrs. where i been silly...
i miss the times when meeting up was just after sch, no advanced appointment required, when life was simple.

i want 2011 to be a year of happiness and joy =)

Paintball

2010-10-24T09:16:00.001-07:00

I know paintball is expensive, but it was something I always wanted to try. In fact I believe it was possible by someone who I used to trust. Yet now, it seems abit hard to get the pple I need to get the game going. Still I will try my best to get the pple I need.. If not I will just leave it to fate. The haZe seems better now. It better be if not I maybe not feeling well already. Having stupid itchy nose recently...

wish that I am able to make my mind abt studying. So that it is finally my turn to say, sorry I have exams, sorry I have Projects, assignments and that I have to go to school. It has Been so long since I have said that. It was always, sorry I have work..

Weather

2010-10-21T00:41:00.001-07:00

Hot hot weather here!!! Zzz. Wish I had air con home, but the good thing is I recently never late for work coz it is so hot that I woke up before my alarm even ring!!! Zzz if I wear a mask out will it be weird? I think this yr haze really worse lo will it be worse for Msia? If not can I move there? Argh hot hot hot!!! My nose not feeling well already so don't make it worse la!!! Life has been boring.. So I am planning just plannin how to make it more interesting.. ESP for my off days, dont really wanna waste it... Hmmm in other words keep checking your facebook... Planning in process...

Happy things..

2010-10-12T06:37:00.001-07:00

My cousin wedding on Saturday.. And it kept me wondering when will it be mine? I don't wanna be the first to be married among my fren, u miss out all the fun and being a bridesmaid. Nor do I want to be the last, coz then will u still have a bridesmaid? So ya, simple request huh.. Happy things been happening.. Work is not so stressful, they hired more pple and so ya so much better, coping well and in comfort zone, there are still days I find my cust stupid and all, the usual but they make my work not as boring.. I always have something to be amazed at. Lol. Now I just plan to go overseas this yr! Didn't go anywhere this yr except Johor la. Not that I dub like, I like la. Hee. Which I went recently. I wish there were more meetups, more gatherings.. More catching up with the people I truely care and care for me.. Big hinting everyone to call or SMS me!

Sick

2010-10-03T00:06:00.001-07:00

Sick again.. Sore throat, cough, flu and fever.. This time I didn't go to wrk. I woke up in the morning thinking if I feel better I will go to work so SMS say I will be late and took panadol but still sick so say I am not reporting to work. Going to see doc. Went and like my last record also is throat infection..zzz last record was july? Doc say is normal.. This time more medicine so more ex by abit.. Being sick makes me think too much... So I just eat and slp... But I still think abt all the things I wan to do... What I can achieve in future?? Plans... Plans... Shall go rest again... What a day to start my month.. Btw Halloween is coming.. Treat or trick? Lol

陶晶莹 - 女人心事

2010-09-22T10:18:00.000-07:00

陶晶莹 - 女人心事

东区的咖啡座　幽暗的沙发里　

总有几张熟悉的脸
那种聪明带点防卫的气质
　
想放弃却又不甘心的样子
越过她的肩膀　空洞洞的视线　

摩登女子灰色心事
那种以为自己什麽都可以
　
喝了酒却又哭的像个孩子
我听见　渴望的泪
我看见　我的从前

曾经我也痛过我也恨过怨过放弃过
在自己的房间里觉得幸福遗弃我

如果没有分离背叛的丑陋　

怎麽算是真爱过
请你试着相信一爱再爱不要低下头

别怕青春消逝就不信单纯的美梦

我在这岸看着你游为你的坚持感动

你会的　有一天会幸福的

What Hurts The Most

2010-09-22T10:12:00.000-07:00

What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

Birthday

2010-09-20T19:25:00.001-07:00

I had a fun day and night birthday... It was raining in the afternoon so most were late and cher wasn't late... Lucky if not I have to wait alone... But the picnic was great we had potato salad, pasta salad, egg Mayo with bread, tou hua, cupcakes, grapes and desert wine... It mus have been troublesome for u gers but thanks... And as per my request I had a cake and was from awfully choc... I wanted a cake coz i didn't have any cake this yr so ya... Thanks =) then we went to cafe del mar to slack in the evening... So going back there again anyone? Followed by going to St James.. I am not a club person just that I didn't go there before... And it is really big there... Not that I wanna go back there again. Though on fri night $15 and 2 Drinks is ok... Thanks once again for all of u... That is how my 22nd birthday came and went... The good things abt birthdays is once it is over u can look forward to the next one next year and start thinking... Time to be a better person =)

Chi bdae..

2010-09-15T09:02:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was my chi bdae... Haha so I was celebrating ah Yee birthday and my own. Lol that's nice. I was guessing it was near and when I was home I saw hongbao.. so I guess as much that it is my chi bdae... Lol. 八月初七。nice number anyway... Then after work tonight I had lychee martini at $5 nett only so I went with my manager and both had 2 rounds though she promise 1 round only. Haha. Tml is half day work and nail day finally... Somehow wish that birthday is not so near so I can continue to enjoy looking forward to my leave and all... What made my way today... Was when I bro told me of his plans next yr. Even if I am not involved I am still happy he said it. Shall keep it a secret. My left eye keep moving today.. They say Is good so what good things is going to happen? Lol...

14 sept

2010-09-14T09:55:00.001-07:00

Bubble hero!!! Our old old school game.. In pri sch and all... Hearing the bubbles and blowing the bubbles bring back all the memories and it is still fun. I am still slow at it but who cares as long as I am having fun.. Lol. All thanks to ah Yee who found the game.. Hee and so so happy la. Words can't describe how I feel. Lol. Happy belated birthday to her too.. We had our fav food fr lunch. Alot though, shui gui, carrot cake, mee fen... Then for dinner went dai tai fung and they ate so many xiaolong bao... All in all we order 50 xiao long bao.. Haha then it was so fun all day long that now I have probs going to slp. Tml is work.. I am glad that even though we grow up, we are diff, yet still same old pattern... That is heartwarming... We also have like 2 cakes in a row and more to come. Not that I hate cakes. Hee.. Sept is a cake month for all of us.. Lol.then is back to reality. Work work work..

6 more days

2010-09-11T07:52:00.001-07:00

So many wish to make yet I can only have 1 wish to make.. I will think hard and long before I make a wish, make a wish... Lol.I dunno what to do sometimes, in life how to find the best and be the best? Except to keep trying and be the best I can right? Sometimes is easier said than done.. I hope I can be like everyone else, like what matters to everyone should matter to me. But more often than not I don't wanna care
And I just don't...yet I care abt other things that pple usually don't bother...

Step up 3

2010-08-26T09:18:00.001-07:00

I finally had chance to watch movie in 3D and choosing step up 3 in 3D is the perfect choice, totally love it. And realize how scary it is to watch scary movie in 3D when they show the trailer. Though something happen that I did kinda make the mood turns bad but I hope everyone else enjoy the movie as much as I did. Anyway before the movie I went to open a DBS acc for the company and the staff there talked to me abt her experience and we share the same view that career prospects is impt in a job. Hee...

To my dearest cousin

2010-08-19T09:26:00.001-07:00

It has been 3 years since u left, my dear cousin.. Mum called and say I need not go there as the people who should be there is going already... In a way I am happy they are going yet in a way I feel like saying I wanna go too... Coz I really wanna pay my respects to u.. But then again can I really handle it? Will I get emo again? So listening to mum I decided to cancel half day leave and proceed to work as usual. Since we kinda not enough people too.. I will pray for u that wherever u are u will be happy... RIP...

Friday..

2010-08-18T02:51:00.001-07:00

2 more days I am going to visit my cousin... 3 years since he passed away... I still remember when I first heard he was sick I was so shocked... And he loved sushi so I bought and visited him in the hospital. now 3 years later I guess I never really get over it. To lose someone u know like this... I guess it must had been harder for my auntie and uncle... Being their elder son and all... I just hope that the people that should be there will e there... RIP my dear cousin...

Fav month

2010-08-12T09:22:00.001-07:00

Happy that fav month is going to be here soon... Coz it also means that I am taking leave... Current plan is just to do my nails and then have good rest... Maybe go jb? Haha honestly after 21, nth much to celebrate just wanna pamper myself or jus it as an excuse to spend. Nth much interesting going on for work... Anyway I tried this app from fb, what's your greatest fear and mine was so accurate... Fear of rejections.... Which is so very true.. I don't like to be rejected.. Just learn to handle it better... At least I think I am better now I guess. At as emo though I still emo but I met my match ok. Haha got more emo people ard which make me wanna become less emo. So life is easier for myself and the people around me. I would at least try to be emo to the least so nobody gets affected... Zzz

Slpless

2010-08-04T10:47:00.001-07:00

I shud slp is late. But I can't I guess this is one of those nights when memories catch up with me that I start missing
Myself again. What I was when I was young and what I am now. U guys should know there is this song baby by Justin? I kinda like the song haha yes cher I like it too. And yes his voice isn't break.. Maybe don't even know what is love yet but being young and singing the song in the way he think love should be? Yes adults sing well and with feelings but what the younger grp sing is diff and I like it too. Reminds me of myself when I was younger, I miss bein me and I can't go back there anymore. I can only look forward, our eyes are in front so we only look front..

Aug aug

2010-08-03T07:27:00.001-07:00

It is finally aug... Meaning my fav month will be here soon.. Though it also means short of manpower but I see them hiring so it should be ok, we should be able to survive... Hee =) I am quite happy with work since I have this eye candy... And the good thing abt eye candy is just seeing him will make u happy and then u can change your eye candy anytime... So ya... Haha...

happy endings...

2010-07-27T06:38:00.001-07:00

in most stories, dramas that i read or see, they always always have a happy endings... not that i prefer sad endings, coz they make u feel sad, like how life isnt sad enuff.. so no matter how the story starts, they always still do end up with a happy ending, but we all know life isnt like this, life may nt always be a happy ending... i know my life is already quite blessed.. i do count my blessings for having nice fren and family ard, but there are days i also think of the pple i lost thru time... i cant help but think if i will ever have a happy ending to myself and nt see it happening ard me. or maybe i just am not doing enuff to deserve what i wan. i use lazy as an excuse to change but truth be told i am jus afraid my efforts wont pay off at the end and end up losing more. i dont gamble coz i know i cant afford to lose. i dont play games coz i only like to win. thats me, i dont want to be a loser in life too so maybe i dont enjoy life. i dont know. we hope we pray.. yet all these dont help if it is all meant to be. we just keep praying and hoping... maybe if u wan it bad enuff, like the saying goes, when there is a will, there will be a way.. and there is also a joke, when there is a will, i wanna be in it.. lol.. i guess even if i dont end up with a happy ending i dont wan my story to end up being a sad story too. i hope my life will end just like what i am to others, a normal girl, leading a normal life. the end.

Mcing

2010-07-25T07:54:00.001-07:00

Took mc today like finally!!! Hee =) then I come back eat the flu medicine like sleeping pills slp whole day then now shud slp cannot slp already!!! Argh!!!! Then tml start work already... Sianz lo but then also means 1 day nearer to pay day... Hee =) feel like going jb as always, an escape for me.. Anyway this yr Halloween when ah? I wan go sentosa? Any1 interested??

Finally

2010-07-23T10:43:00.001-07:00

Like finally I get to rest already... Yet now I can't sleep. Lucky tml off... Is it bcos I sick I think abt him more? Even my current manager bears the same surname as him, luckily she is nice so ok. But When she talk abt her family i cant help but link again and feel like somehow She is his relative... But even So Is none of My biz.. Just it seems i cant get rid of that family, I know I just have to face it... I will and I must! Anyway work has been busy so even though I sick but time pass real fast and pple were all nice to me except a few customers who never fail to drive me crazy. Saw a joke abt these pple, they don't need a license to drive, since they drive u crazy.. Lol... kinda make me feel better alittle... Wish time can fast forward to sept, since now and aug we are going to be short of staff then hopefully by sept ok then I take leave for my bdae and also for all my other sept frenz la... Hee.. Looking forward to sept rest week!!! Hee anywhere is fine as long as not Cathay, not dhoby!

Change

2010-07-22T09:51:00.001-07:00

I guess I change... Last time I will just take MC when I am sick. Now I keep delaying mc coz not enough people. Or maybe first time encounter such shortage of manpower!!! Haiz sick also will crawl there... I guess it is Also cox I know how hateful working alone is that I dont really wanna do that to others. Just hope they hire people soon....

Sick

2010-07-21T06:28:00.001-07:00

Sick!!! Argh is like now I don't know if I should feel impt or no choice coz not enough people... Haiz wish they hire people soon... If not aug I also die..anyway I already told them I will go to work tomorrow so I must go.. Friday then see how or take mc... Please give me all the good people since I am like so sick... Thanks.. Being sick make me feel so useless and I need to get better soon, so I need the rest..

Heat pack

2010-07-20T08:42:00.001-07:00

Recently it was quite cold and I been having leg cramps like I always did. Cher and ting recommended heat pack! Haha which I happen to have alot. Not going to say why here but ya i started using... And got addicted to it ... spore isn't that cold but is nice to feel warm at night!!! Hee =) also realise alot of things in life is like the heat pack, doesnt last long but long enough for us to want it again huh??? Anyway it looks like I really can take MC soon, been feeling kinda sick... Sore throat now... But must bear with it cox now not enough people... Maybe I kinda like being feel like I am impt... Haha... Oh ya meng thx for the recommendations but I guess I really need to sort out what I wanna study next Year instead, I can't reply my tagboard coz I using iPhone... I really wanna study unless I can find a better job than what I am having now...

Wishes

2010-07-17T09:11:00.001-07:00

We all know wishes don't come true, we still like to make a wish on birthdays, Xmas and any time you feel like it.. recently I only wish for the one thing I can't wish for... Haha don't ask me what it is, won't say. Anyway this coming week gonna be busy, feel like taking mc soon to rest... Haha but feel Bad doing that, shall wait till I really fall sick I guess...work and work goes on... Life is like that...

Lalalala

2010-07-16T09:11:00.001-07:00

I been shopping so much I guess these months I didn't save much, went to ah Yee workplace to buy pants is like so cheap, $39... Then she told me Zara sales!!! I bought 1 top then went cotton on with my frenz and I buy things there for her and myself... I think I am shopaholic, start Liao can't stop...haha... On a random note, it seems that I have a interest with a random lame guy.. Haha!!!

update

2010-07-08T10:21:00.001-07:00

update, my bro didnt win....long story... i know this is random, just feel so unfair, adults lied, so in order to continue the lie, the kids suffer. there is always a valid reason to things. it is like no matter how good u are i will still feel u are bad kind of thing, i know i am bias, so be it. give urself a reason to feel better, then how do the kids feel better with such adults? just have to make sure it stop there and nt continue..

world cup

2010-07-08T07:16:00.001-07:00

the spain victory was the hot topic today when i reported to work today... lol. and i am glad spain won, coz my bro win too!!! anyway i say i will blog abt karate kid, decided to just make it short. good show, love the ending... when chen long asked y do u wanna go on so much? the kid replied coz i dun wanna be scared anymore. totally agree!!!

carsick

2010-07-06T10:10:00.001-07:00

watched karate kid.. i know i should post abt hw i feel after that. maybe i will in the next post, nw jus wanna complain!!! coz of the stupid taxi driver i feel carsick now. motion sickness which i seldom feel... feel like vomitting... argh i shud be sleeping now. tml still gt work lo. haiz. the last time i had carsick was like so long ago. and that time the journey was too long... and the driver is like lost so ya.. this time it wasnt even tht long!! somemore nw i feel like vomitting yet no vomit!!! hope i get better like now!

butter factory...

2010-07-02T09:35:00.000-07:00

on wed, i went with joy, cher and lynn to the butter factory... and joy this is also my first time to butter factory =)and best of all is to be invited to the VIP area! love the view from the VIP room. lucky us =) and i know this sounds like weird, considering the fact that i went to clubs before, but yes this is the 1st time i went to the dance floor... dun ask me y, i just feel like going, maybe i dun see y nt, since i do not have to ans to any1 except myself. anyway, cher, it reali wasnt that bad... maybe it was bcoz i was with just u, joy and lynn, u gers know me so well, i could just relax, or maybe the work stress is getting into me? since it is ladies nite, free cover and free drinks. of coz, i enjoy myself...

by the way, i just spend my pocket $ from the govt to get a new specs, managed to get discount until it reached exactly $200... lol. so there it flew ~
after getting my specs done today, i went to trim my eye brown, and it was only $3!!!so going back there again.... the best thing is near there also gt 1 nails shop, i did express manicure with peiwen for $8 and we added quick dry so $10 =)

it is only the start of the mth, and i think i spend alot already... opps.

happy...

2010-06-24T08:50:00.000-07:00

i am so in a good mood today...
hee =) both my brothers are being so nice to me today =)
1 is helping me with updating my iphone to 4G os which my netbook have probs doing it and so he is using his desktop to help me... but it will still take some time...
another brother gave me something else and yes today is a happy day =) just 5 more mins to 25 june, another work day usually i aint happy, but now i am! haha =)

if only everyday is like this, and another 5 more days to pay day? haha life can get better =)

times changes thing...

2010-06-20T06:41:00.001-07:00

the next time i saw u,
i thought i will hate u for all the things u said and done to me,
i thought i will not wanna talk,

but in actual, i dont hate u,
i do still smile and talk to u,
just like i will to a fren....

i thank god for the strength given to me during this period,
i thank my family for just being there,
i thank my fren for all the supprt given,

i think i passed, next time i will aced it...

i thank u too, for letting me see the world i should be in,
nt in the world u make me believe i will be in...

the familar stranger, familiar family, life can only get better...

better already...

2010-06-07T07:17:00.003-07:00

to joy as i am using iphone to reply i cant reply on tagboard. yeah i am feelin better coz i know what is the cause of the prob already!!! and thx for the concern... hope u are fine there at aussie too.... my life is always the same here at spore. and i am addicted to going johor. food cheap even movie also cheap lo... rm10 on sat!!! haha... wish we could have more time to meet my frenz but work is kinda stress recently so i can only try to meet on my of days... so sorry if i cant make it after work sometimes after work all i wanna do is to go back to the comfort of my own home...

better already...

2010-06-07T07:17:00.001-07:00

troubled

2010-06-06T08:45:00.001-07:00

i was so happy ytd... had my fav food in the morning laksa from the fav stall and bubble tea... then came back home to have home made zong zi by mum... followed by dinner, veg chicken rice at my fav stall and since is at geylang i ask him to buy durians too!!! so yes i was so happy.. did i mention it was a WAS? coz today i had a totally bad day. i will nv forgive that cust for this. i do really hope she have a good nite whoever bring this upon me... of coz i mean the opp. to the extent that even when someone treated me my all time fav fries i could only be thankful and try to be happy... when someone reply my sms faster than usual i can only be thankful again and try to get it of my mind. i guess i am just too stupid too too useless. yes u gt it all right and now i am glad u aint beside me to see all this coz that will only prove u were right. there i told u... all this words i could imagine them. lucky u aint here so i could be stronger and for the 1st time i am glad we are like this nw.. i hope tml will be a better day...

chc

2010-06-01T06:48:00.001-07:00

as u all know i am not a christian... for the recent city harvest church case i just feel that maybe we should give them some credit...just some.. haha. last time i also feel that this church is too rich... but then again i think... the best thing they done is.... written on my fb actually!! haha that is they gave youth a religion a belief to stand to. a place to have your prayers answered at least when there is no one ard to trust to talk to, there is a place to go to... reduce the amt of pple having depression?? but the fact that they spend so much abt millions to buy apart of suntec i seriously dont think it is right... if it is true...

johor

2010-05-29T08:11:00.001-07:00

went johor today!!! hee =) warch a movie at cathay for only rm10!!! and there is ktv there, rate is so much cheaper!!! nt enuff time to try at all! had my fav ice cream and lunch there... will upload pics in fb soon!!! hee.. fun fun fun!! hope to go again!!

ice cream

2010-05-22T06:41:00.000-07:00

even though these days have been raining.. but i still felt like eating ice cream so i went ntuc and got the POTONG ice cream. old sch rite? but i always rmb when i was young the ice cream man will ring his bell and i will be happy and ask mum for $ to go buy. i will rush down to make sure i get for myself and my family... anyway it was also having discounts so i just bought it. see this is what discount can do to pple like me. that buy coz feel worth it.

ah yee came to my hse today to slack for awhile and while shopping at ntuc i saw a religion frenz so invited her to my hse since she was also shopping alone. then we ate the ice-cream together with my parents and my big brother, too bad my another bro had to go out with his gf if not my entire family and frenz will be eating the ice-cream with me =) just like it was last yr at my 21st bdae chalet. even though it was just POTONG ice-cream but it was still nice when eating together. (cher if u are reading this, haha yes i am promoting ur togetherness!!! ) lol! btw CHER when u come back pls call me to arrange for a meetup! coz i have things to discuss with u! u were supposed to meet mi before u fly actually... haha..

... yet again tml work starts for me again. without rest til 10days later... then is shopping time coz pay will come already! haha....these days i really dont know what to blog about.life is simple, not that i am complaining. just nth much to say, and for ur info, i dun really post anything on facebook nowadays, check my twitter ba or add me ( ask me), coz facebook got too many pple i dunno on a personal level. tweet is easier coz i cant blog 1 sentence rite? haha

at ah yee house...

2010-05-07T01:30:00.000-07:00

currently at ah yee hse typing... finally she got her new keyboard, so much easier to type. and i bought my fav egg tarts from tamp. haha. jus had lunch at swensens with my frenz, her treat and it was 1 for 1! i prefer the arrabiate pasta from pastamani though, not that i am complaining since it was a treat. hee... feel like going ben and jerry for ice cream soon. and amazing on a friday afternoon there is long Q at swensens, i think their 1 for 1 lunch promotion is doing great, it is from 11 to 1pm..

seeing how the people around me are currently so stress about their exams, kinda make me stress too, since i am planning to study next year. argh, shall not think too much and save up first i guess...

so many places i wanna go, i dont mind organising but qns is i feel they are all so costly, i shud not req my frenz..
for example, universal studio, a stay at hard rock hotel, go to hard rock cafe, casino and so much more. argh i am being to be want to spend more, must save!!!

and martell is addictive. haha. went kbox for bdae celebration and we sang from 8pm to 4am, the longest record sang.. and open 2 small bottle martell, 1 bottle is proudly empty at my house.

i think i must be getting old... last mth right shoulder pain, this mth left shoulder pain!!!

off...

2010-04-30T08:05:00.001-07:00

you know u are tired/unhappy with work when all u look forward to is your off day. that is how i feel....
only time i look forward to work was today coz it is pay day. lucikly my pay wasnt delayed. it was on time, heee..

tml is my hse the big event, so happy as there will be so much food and then going out to meet my frenz... hee.. hope to have lots of fun before work starts yet again..

jobb..

2010-04-23T07:20:00.000-07:00

i know having a job is better than none at all. at least got income.
but sometimes, actually most times.. i feel i really am very lost of what to do.
i met a frenz recently during work, she used to work contract job with me few yrs back, now she is in property line, earning big bucks, and hey, where am i?
is time i wake up and go study or get a better career for my future. i know. am looking into savings and looking into what to study actually.

want to do events. but is not practical. spore events like no future. thinking of marketing or even biz. jus coz it is easier to get a career. also seriously thinking of banking, just the $ itself is WOW!!! but the stress level confirm also high!!!
need to strike a balance. so ya, making plans, i know i been saying this for very long just dunno what to do. either a better career soon or further my studies is what i plan to do...

and meanwhile i seriously hope that i do not spend any more money on expensive dress again. haha. my taobao dress came, too big! have to spend $ again to alter it. haiz... sending it tml during my break time...

work isnt going very well recently. some pple just cant say what they mean and mean what they say. while some just think being ah beng helps to get things done.
havent seen any handsome guy for quite awhile. maybe that is what is getting into me. since i have to bear with all this, i been pampering myself with my fav things...
like i drank hoegarden ytd nite... did mask frequently, aromatherapy everyday and made sushi!!! hee =)oh did i mention i went to do a express manicure =) hee.... so nice to have some1 do your nails, and they provide service too, gt drinks while waiting for your nails to dry...

then reality comes, tml work again...

fri nite

2010-04-16T08:39:00.001-07:00

is fri nite and i tot it is thurs, no wonder today i get non-stop hit at work.
but time flies when it is bz so ya i forget it is fri.
and tml is my off day!! hee...

dad went msia this morning and woke me up to explain how to use the camera at about 6am.. haha. though i wasnt in a good mood, kinda grumpy but then was glad that he is going to have fun. hope he brings something back for me too =)

i know this is random, but i need tricks on how to stay focus.
if u know, tell me ok?

Cookingssss

2010-04-11T08:32:00.001-07:00

Ytd I tried cooking pasta. To be exact stir fried pasta. My 1st time trying tat as taught by cher. As usual I cook the pasta and I used the olive oil my mum bought recently and the vegetarian seasonings too. of coz nt forgetting my fab red wine. I didn't open it for this, jus had left over in the fridge and is not open by me. Open by me sure gone already. anyway i like it! Haha I added mock prawn too, no pic as I think it doesn't look nice. But taste nice. Haha cooked by me of coz nice la. I also like cher version of the pasta just not so much beer next time ok. And yes is true put tiger beer taste stronger than red wine. But when cooking it in, the red wine fill my senses totally living it more. And really nice. Maybe coz the red wine is not those gd 1 too. U can't use gd one for cooking it is for Loti to drink 1. Lol. At least it satisfy my cravings to drink. And I wasn't really drinking am I?

我是誰我是誰我是誰

2010-04-09T23:29:00.001-07:00

我是誰我是誰我是誰 - MAGIC POWER
曲︰廷廷
詞︰廷廷
編︰JAE CHONG

我是誰　你是否常常這樣問自己
我是誰　總是活在別人的期望裡
我是誰　是誰又擅自幫你定義了
你是誰　只有不是自己才安全

為什麼　你以為這個世界很美麗
為什麼　你愛這個世界勝過愛自己
為什麼　這個世界不給你平等待遇
為什麼　到底做錯了什麼

＊朋友都說你太太太奇怪
在背後把你當成笑笑笑話看
每一個動作都被瞎猜
他們說你是個不能容忍的存在

＃你想要的很很很簡單
不過就是最普通的的的平凡
誠實做自己有時候很難
但是請你勇敢的試一次看看

＋無論他們又說什麼　閒言閒語無法傷害我
世界上只有一個我　沒人能代替得我
無論他們又做什麼　小動作無法打敗我
我知道自己是最美麗的
THE MOST BEAUTIFUL

會不會　上帝把你的靈魂放錯了身體
會不會　是故意整你不是不小心
會不會　你常常都覺得力不從心
會不會　堅持要做自己太危險

憑什麼　難道比較特別就是不對
憑什麼　先下了註解在認識之前
憑什麼　只不過想認真的活一遍
憑什麼　隨便就把人定罪

重唱　＊,＃,＋,＋

我是誰　這個問題困擾你多少天多少夜
我是誰　誰有資格決定你怎樣才是對
我是誰　我是誰我是誰
我就是我你就是你
認真做自己的人最美麗

life...

2010-04-09T08:27:00.000-07:00

sad. coz having more pimples lately. maybe coz stress, maybe coz i slp late. or maybe both. argh!! bought faceshop mask to try as recommended by ah yee. hope it will make me feel better, shall try it on tml...

today went swimming with clara then it was so shiok la. coz no pple ma, fri =) summore no sun, great weather. only prob was i drop my iphone for the 2nd time. but i heard from clara that her frenz also always drop iphone so shud be ok. lol...
and cher get well soon, u nearly freak me out! so take care! health more impt ba!

feel like going to so many places... go kbox, go TWG, go hard rock cafe, go taiwan, go GENTING, go USA go anywhere my legs can go ~ but then i dun have so much $ so have to slowly plan what i wanna do...
been trying to control my spending habits.
but i still went GIANT to buy cup noodles and tea.
and i still want to do my specs next mth. haha...
seems like hard to save...

sometimes i really dunno what i wan.
every1 seems to know what they wan, most anyway.
i jus take 1 step at a time.

anyway i watch AVATAR, think it was too highly rated, maybe i have to high expectation for it ba.
and watch KONG FU PANDA too, is nice, u can be what u wan as long as u believe in it.
haha but the panda beri cute lo, training is highly inspired by food. i wonder what will inspire me? maybe travelling ba, coz for nw i only feel that when it comes to travelling i really really very interested la. but who isnt? so ....
no conclusion anyway..

Work

2010-04-07T08:52:00.001-07:00

So many things I wanted to say. In summary Work really isn't gd though I did meet 1 gd cust. Which is the guy I talk abt on my fb actually. Haha great guy la make my day great then rite after him came the difficult people. Haa haha so sorrie tat u guys who saw the status misunderstood it. If only he really is... Lol... Lucky fri off Going swimming to relax and really feel like drinking with hoegarden and vodka at home. May drink on my off day I need to be high. Need to know life is still great. If only everyday is pay day !!! Jiayou!

Clash of the Titans

2010-04-03T20:36:00.001-07:00

having watch the Clash of the Titans ytd,
i went to search and this is what i got...

Clash of the Titans may refer to:

Clash of the Titans (1981 film), a fantasy film about the myth of Perseus
Clash of the Titans (2010 film), a remake of the 1981 film

so it is kinda clear that 2010 version is nicer with the graphics and all that.
and i think the movie isn't that bad, though really is more about Perseus.
i like the way how the hate make Perseus strong enough to wanna fight, and how fear of the Hades can make u feel... change the way u think...
and lastly, how Perseus starting off with wanting to revenge his father to indirectly helping Zeus...

more importantly, what i loved most is the way Zeus care about Perseus, is what i expected Poseidon to care about Percy Jackson in the book...
also about how GOD is in a way like human too, they ain't perfect. they can't do everything on their own... they make their own mistakes too...

the graphic of the show was great. haha.
but it might have been better if i watch it in 3D? maybe next movie i should go 3D!
so generally it wasn't too bad. hee glad i went to watch it after seeing the low movies review.
and alot of others were like me, coz the grand cathay was having full house ytd, imagine the timing was 9.50pm and still full!

April fool

2010-04-01T08:48:00.001-07:00

As today is April fool day I find it hard to take anything serious. Which makes it easier for me in work. Since I dun take what is said seriously... Haha... And I tot my boss was playing a trick on me after a frenz trick me and pet society trick abt the 3d. Surprise to know pet society gt such stuns. And even the ris low news abt being in 98.7fm is a joke. I wonder if is really a joke or they decided nt to use her? So since is April fool then dismiss it? Anyway my boss was like hey I am serious but I am doubting him. Haha. Happy April fool day. Going to be Gd Friday in another few more mins.... Happy holidays! I still am working though so ya. Happy working for me and any1 else working....

Live

2010-03-31T07:49:00.001-07:00

As long as I live I continue to breathe. Breathe and smile thru my every day. It will be easier if everyday is pay day. Lol Tml will be April fool day and also th release of the clash of the titans! So looking forward to seeing it but I may have to work , meaning ot la. But haven't confirm.... Shall see hw but I know I must watch it at most after work only. And being heavily influenced by ah yee I bought few items from taobao. Hope it will be successful.. And I been eating nice mango recently. Haha these days mango taste so nice. Sweet and cheap. Dad says is the season for mango. But funny enuff after eating mango feel like eating durian.

bored

2010-03-28T04:08:00.001-07:00

i am working as i am typing this... haha...
i just wanna say i was really happy these days for my 2off day!!!
on friday i went to my training.. i was kinda stupid or stm coz i reach at 9 when i shud be meeting at 9.45 but lucky they came at 9.30 and i am being paid ot too!!!
then i head to orchard....
as heeren has this promotion for every $28 spend u get $20 of food voucher. so shiok. haha...
then i ate my fav food. sliced potato.....
called rosti. if i nv rmb wrongly. they have it at marche i ate there few yrs ago with cher and frenz. then now few yrs back i ate it again... with cher ...hee... then we have dessert. oh ya their milk tea is super nice. cher say daiso gt i went there dun have lo. shall go there again next weekend or next next. haha shop and dine for freeee.......

then sat. which is ytd. i ate my fav bedok veg. curry and shuai guay.
best thing is ting mum rmb me.. and called me loti. then she commented that u slim down... tat totally made my day... heeee...
then meet ah yee at her hse and happily discussed abt taobao stuffs and filled my hard disk with axis power hetalia video. heee... then she offered me a mug of milo.... haha.
and we watched old sch video like char sao bao songs. haha so funny her little brother insisted we watch it for 3 times. he keep saying again again like teletubbies... haha. cute.
but ah yee is patience with him.
lucky is nt my bro. i jus aint used to it. i am the youngest in the family. luckily nt the oldest. haha. then do my bro think of me as troublesome too? hmmmm i wonder....
wadeva i am their only sister!! lol...

then time flies. work starts today.
finally had my long awaited cup noodles. the kimchi flavoured one. but had to finish it in a rush. nt enuff pple. haha. but gt free egg from my frenz. her grandma cooked....
hee tat make my day today.
see an egg can make me feel so happy... haha...
is nt hard to make me happy rite?lol

delicated to ah yee...

2010-03-26T06:22:00.000-07:00

this post is a public apology to ah yee..
hmmm it is not anything serious actually. just that i promise her i will blog abt it. so here i go...

Sorry! Sorry!!!

and here is y i am saying sorry sorry to her...
quite some time ago, when NEW Moon Movie came out, i wanted to watch...
but we were going to aust soon to visit lx. so i didnt really have time to go and see..
i thought we could watch in aust, since i heard they gt free seating and all. but ah yee wasnt interested in watching new moon, so we didnt watch. and by the time i reach spore, almost every1 i know watch it already... as usual, i jus forget abt watching...

until recently when i gt iphone, there is this application, rum tel aka w.tv. where i can dl movies etc... so i saw new moon and dl it to watch. after watching then i realise i am happy i saved the movie $...
coz the only impressive part was when JANE came out. so i am truly grateful that ah yee had prevented me from going..... thanks!!!!

UPDATES:

as requested by ah yee in my tagboard. haha.

i was being all pissy and stuffs....
haha quoted directly from her...
meaning that i wasnt happy that i didnt watch and i just kinda blamed it on her that i didnt watch la. coz i was really looking forward to watching it in aust ....
and so for so many mths when i have a chance i will say something like i didnt watch new moon lo, coz ah yee not interested...
then when i finally watch, i realise she is right abt not watching la.
i guess i really am being a very bad friend. afterall i could have watch the movie on my own if i really wanted to right? just that i didnt want to do that. so ya...
SORRY!

Fast

2010-03-23T09:14:00.001-07:00

I do nt want to turn back time I jus wanna fast forward to see what I will be at the end of my life. Maybe the reason y I love watching movies is coz there is always a start and an ending to it. If for everything Tat end there is always another starting point when will it ever end? For every single breathe I take I lose some. For every day pass is a day less. I know that I am nt jus any other girl so y bother to compare? Loti u are Loti! Life can only get better. I guess this post is totally random. Honestly I dunno what I am trying to say just typing on my iPhone what I think and as I think I am getting slpy gd nite!

random

2010-03-19T08:22:00.000-07:00

it is my off day tml. finally....
coz this week has been a busy week.
i was not given a 2nd brk time. so i can't eat the cup noodles that i ask ah yee to buy for me! so they are still lying in my locker, tempting me everyday.

anyway today, after work when me and ah yee went ps ...
i heard a random stranger talking behind us.
he saw these poster for the movie, the clash of the titans...
and commented that this is the matured version of the percy jackson movie to his frenz... which make mi luff la.
haha in a way it's true la. is about the GREEK GOD ma, is the way he says it i guess.
so looking forward to watching it!!!

and tml i will be going to tea chapter =)
finally! every time after visiting there, i will feel like going again. but i know i just cant keep calling pple to go with me. unless i dun mind going alone.
time changes alot of things, last time i dun even want to eat alone, now i do.
long ago i dun wan to shop alone, but i did it last yr i think.
so who knows i might go to tea chapt alone?

time also make my short term memory worse than ever ~
coz i actually forget that my dad bdae is next mth. nt today. ytd bro bought cake home earlier coz i tot is his bdae today! end up is next mth.
but we still cut the cake la. lol. shall post pics next mth!
and in work wise, also my memory is failing me. been trying to take notes and making an effort to rmb... really getting old huh? lol...